There are many stories, legends, religions and rituals based on Shiva. I know virtually none of them. Perhaps for good reason. Legends are often based in truth and then changed for a myriad of reasons, some fairly innocent, some not. The stories of Shiva are no different. I was very reticent to channel Shiva publicly. I don't know anything about Shiva or Hindu traditions, millions of people do and base religions on it! Yet the call has been made that I do this to begin to loosen the segregation around Shiva and allow more people access to the beautiful Love of Shiva's Heart and Will. When you feel how much Shiva is in love with you, your heart opens and so begins the destruction of outdated hurts, fear and pain. As Shiva envelops you in Ancestral Love, you are expanded into your own Love and Empowerment. Shiva is here to assist and bring great speed to the process. Here I bring you Shiva's words and energy to assist your journey. I am honored to be a bridge.
To understand emotion is to understand time. For emotion and time are hand in hand in their function. As you utilize emotion you are marking points in time. As you utilize time you are marking points in emotion. When you experience emotion in your physical existence, your energetic body relays information, tracking emotional marker points from the experience that your soul-stream has throughout all time. Your soul stream interweaves with many others, it is not constant. It changes, expands and refines. You are you, and you are all. Therefore from all experience throughout time you use emotion to relate different experiences to one another. This is why the clearing of fear has become so important at this time. The clearing of fear is imperative to moving forward into empowerment.
Fear is a perceived limitation, and this is contrary to your core existence and detrimental to your evolution. Fear is a vibration that comes from what is unknown. It is a phenomenon that developed as you lost understanding of the God within, as that was not always the experience on Earth. As you lost command of your creative POWER, fear came in to experience. And what a grand experience it is. Humanity even courts fear in many varying levels and avenues. You have physical fear, emotional fear, spiritual fear, financial fear, tribal fear, fear of the past, present and future, fear of yourself, fear of others, fear of God, shall I continue? Fear is business as movies and television bring up fear, fear is marketing as they show you something you need or your life will be lacking or unsafe, fear is news as they teach to you that you must know and prepare for all the danger for it is rampant upon Earth. Fear is medicine and insurance. Fear is aging and death. Fear is what keeps you thinking that you do not know absolutely everything. Which you do. You have access to every experience, thought, probability, solution - past, present or future - that exists. You are universal in nature, creative in thought, word and deed, and God in physical form. Fear is a human experience played in a human forum.
It is humanities gift now that empowerment become one and the same with the freedom that they are to experience. This space called ascension is nothing more than rapid evolution. Human evolution would be much faster, if not for fear. The releasement of fear within the personal experience is imperative. For fear is nothing but an unknown that has not yet been understood. For all that you experience in your life you deal with that with which you understand, and that with which you do not have understanding. And some of these perceived are dangerous or limiting or insurmountable or out of the bounds of your power and this is not so EVER. There are instances where what appears on the surface may be of such great cause that one person could not possibly affect change. However there is an interconnectedness within you all that you do not acknowledge as real, therefore you see yourselves as separate. And this is not so. Fear is directly related to belief systems, for fear is an incongruent state of belief that latches on to the emotional energy output of humans and animals and plants and rocks -- anything in existence. You are aware of the fears of animals and humans, though you are not aware of fears of plants, rocks, etc., they may be there nonetheless. Like a free floating ion, it is ready to attach and become one with the emotion. Once fear attaches, the structure is modified. The effect of that emotion, idea, experience is now carrying the vibration of fear and limitation must now be interacted with, as one makes choice as to how to deal with the perceived limitation. Some will face fears head-on, some will cower, some will turn and run. Some fears will make you laugh, some cry, some angry, some will go unrecognized as they attach to energies of which you are unaware.
That which you desire, so does all of the universe desire and this brings fear to your mind. For you think there are people out there with desires to destroy, desires to control, desires to harm and hurt. This is so, we acknowledge that there is such upon this earth. For all realms of experience are granted and interacting. The desires that YOU want to bring forth are what the universe brings to you. For all of the universe hears the call and that with which you call, you interact. All those that have differing desires that you do not choose to interact with do not have power over you. They are powerless in your creation. For that which you call, the universe will bring forth for you to interact with and expand.
That which you are aware of that you do not want to interact with, does come into your vibration. This is where emotion begins to show you what is in your experience, what is in your Akash, what it is that you are calling forth, if not by word by deed. If the emotion that you feel has negative feelings for you or invokes any sort of interpretation of something so not desired, then it is that within your akash. So lies the vibration that can be activated. Look to the emotion to indicate what is in your field, for if there is resistance then there is potential to activate. There is no amount of qualification that can undo this resonance. If it brings emotion that is negative or unwanted, then you know that within your vibration of akash past present or future, there is a potential to be activated. This is where releasing fear is beneficial to your experience. For the activation can not occur if you release the fear. It has been said that you will carry fear from lifetime to lifetime, waiting for it to end, waiting for solution, waiting for revenge, waiting for retribution, waiting for closure. There it is held within your experience, for you are timeless experiencing time. And if the activation is a potential, then you will know by the indications of the emotion.
So how does one release fear? Come to terms with your power and your limitlessness for it is the experience that you are here to find. Within this vehicle that seems limited by time, by space, by experience, this vehicle has potential to be absolutely limitless. This is the space that you must find when the fear comes to threaten that limitlessness. You must activate the vibration that also resides within that is safety. Safety is accessed through the knowingness, the understanding and the awareness that all that you are, all that you ever were and all that you ever will be is absolutely perfect. There is no other beingness. Not just easy words, these are fact. From your perception you see less than, from your perception you see imperfections and I say to you with all surety that imperfections are an illusion. With all different shapes, sizes, colors, choices, timbres, heights, freedoms, powers, talents, within all variants, there is perfection. Nothing but perfection. From this place of variance, it is your work, your job, your path, your guidance to find your perfection. For within you, it is seated. Perfection is humanity. Perfection waits for you to awake to the knowingness that it IS and All That Is - is YOU. The beauty of the variance that sings the song of humanity. That spirit so loves. Find that voice within you that says I AM PERFECT. I am perfect. I am perfect. This is the knowingness that all that you experience, all that you see, hear, feel, taste, touch, imagine, do - is perfect.
So what to do with fear? It's not all bad, you know. Fear can be quite exhilarating, yes? Fear is a nuance of excitement, depending on your perception and acceptance. That which you fear is but an unknown that has not yet been integrated into your beingness. Fear is an unknown in its positive sense, fear is a limitation (lack of power) in its negative sense. So if you make a choice to become aware of fear in its positive sense and enhance that quality within life, then you have a better understanding and perception of fear. Begin to notice the benefit that unknown offers to you.
There are many unknowns that bring you great excitement. For it is the unknown that is the reason for the beingness. This unknown is the expansion, the growth, the life. All of life is your birthright. For life is what you are. Fear is an illusion. Speak clearly to your akash and illuminate the fear as the illusion that it is.
So it is that my love for humanity is available at your intention to assist with the illumination of fear. That power that is within you is accessible. I will help with opening the door, you are the one that walks through, for it is you that is the point of power that is Life. In the greatest of Loves we breathe as one, for it is.
We would say to you that forgiveness is the key to freedom.
Freedom is an important aspect of your power. When you are free, you do not live your life by consequence, you do not make your decisions by others needs. For as others needs press upon you, you take their freedom from them. Counterintuitive? Yes. Well thought out? Yes. That you would experience confusion around this subject of your power - well thought out. For as you become free, truly free, those around you will begin to resonate. You will entrain others.
It is a multilayered process, for in your circumstances you will find your areas of constriction and non-freedom tied into each other. You will find others' needs pressing upon you ever so loudly, sharply, heavily.
But Shiva, there are needs that must be met -- a mother with a child... how do you meet these needs from a place of freedom? Freedom does not release you from all human experiences, freedom changes the energy of that experience. The mother that feeds, clothes, shelters, loves the child from a space of freedom - brings that child their own freedom much more quickly, much more expansively. A mother that feeds, clothes, shelters and loves her child from a place of fear, brings that child to fear ever so much more.
Imagine your need to eat surrounded by fear. This is what you experience. Imagine looking at the future of life and seeing fear. This is what you experience when you are loved from a place of fear. So it is that when you are loved from a place of freedom, you do learn that (freedom). How is it that you love from freedom? You know who you are (Divine, powerful).
Recognize that true love only ever comes from freedom. Any other conditions, and it is not true love. It is need, it is control, it is manipulation, it is obligation. This you do to yourself, you do to others, and others do to you. In order for you to feel good certain circumstances must be presented. This is a condition that you put on your love, on your experience. The energy of forgiveness brings forth a release of condition. The energy of forgiveness brings forth a release of expectation. The energy of forgiveness brings the release of the wound. When you release the wound, there is no scarring remaining.
The energy of forgiveness feeds you with power. It feeds you with power. How is this so, you say? As you release through forgiveness, you become stronger than that which you held. As you release that which you held, you become free. Power does not exist without freedom.
Let us first talk of labels, categories. This is what your mind does when it controls your heart; labels, categorizes, organizes. In balance, all of these are powerful enhancers. Too little of these functions and the heart can not magnetize its needs and desires, too much of these functions and the heart does not have a voice and therefore the needs and desires of your true beingness are not manifested. Therefore we balance the feeling place with the thinking place, the action place with the reaction place, the yin with the yang, the masculine with the feminine. It is a human pursuit, a valiant pursuit and one that at this time and this place presents an unprecedented opportunity within humanity’s conscious memory.
The thinking and the feeling are not able to be separated, though humans try in so many different and creative ways. It is common in this time and place ( United States) to honor only that which can be grasped by the mind, “proved” as it would be accepted, though that in itself means nothing except for the value that you give it. It is common to attempt to command the feelings, conquer the feelings, disempower the feelings. This leads to action action action, and yang becomes out of balance, masculine becomes out of balance, no matter what the sex of the body. Remember we speak of yang out of balance, not to denigrate yang itself. To discover, to discern, to define is human; action, yang and masculinity, is human. This is perfect as it is. But one must discover with the entirety of their being or lack the perspective needed to perceive the wholeness. Without the interaction of the entire being, heart and mind, yin and yang, the soul will react to the partial vibration of that which you have offered. Just as the taste reacts to a partially cooked meat, so the soul reacts to a partially accepted vibration. The heart is the transducer of the soul, therefore, action must originate from the ‘heart vibration’ to connect with the source of all that you are. When the heart is allowed to express and reveal the full vibration to the mind so the action can begin, the interweaving of the two will be markedly inspiring, joyful, dynamic, easy and yes, even logical, but not as you have been abused by that word. Then the labels and categories and organization of the mind will encompass the full information of the experience and the interaction will proceed with grace and ease.
In the energy of all that you encompass within your individuality (which includes all levels of you, mother, daughter, woman, American, metaphysician, etc.) you hold all that you have ever experienced as well as all the potentials of what you will be within this physical vibration. This is an oversimplification of the interaction of your energy field that is so vast and so intertwined that the thought can be overwhelming. Suffice to know that you are the master of your field, and within that weave of connection, resides the power to loom your own fabric across all time and all space.
You are expanding exponentially within these times; a quickening that calls forth the removal of the discordant in order to assist your highest potential. From our perspective, this control factor, the mind-lead factor slows your progress greatly. But like the human with a problem with food, the solution cannot be to abolish it from your life, but to integrate a balance within the interaction of it. Accept the beauty of the mind and disallow the control that it wields to stifle your full expression.
Note the placement of the expression vibration, the throat chakra, the voice between the heart and mind. Very cleverly placed. Notice the placement of the perception center. The third eye. Shining forth from the center of the mind. Not merely a coincidence. Look to your extrasensory perception and notice the correlation of your physical expression. Look to your physical to correspond to your spiritual. There is no organ in your body that is untouched by the action of the heart. It is the heart that feeds the brain the nutrients that it needs through the interaction with the blood. Much importance is placed upon the ‘seeing.’ In balance, yes a beautiful gift. Who would choose blindness when the full scope of experience is fuller? But clairvoyance alone would leave the mind to its own devices to interpret a picture with no understanding of the feelings and expression of that which it contains. Again, the importance of allowing the heart, the feeling center to interpret becomes paramount in these times.
We will trace a simplified version of energy as it interacts with your highly capable processors of energy, your senses. They are so intertwined that to separate them is impossible, but we will try in order to engage and satisfy your mind. A crossing with a person that makes you feel angry results in many feelings, but your mind takes over and assesses the situation as ‘wrong’ thereby categorizing you as ‘victim.’ Powerless, a receiver of bad things happening to you. You process information so quickly and on so many levels, that most are undetectable to you. That one experience will imprint information regarding smell, location, how your body is feeling, standing or moving, the location, the season, the sounds, the memories that it relates to come into process such as ‘my father made me feel this way,’ it is all processed and assembled by the physical body, including the mind. As you experience, you imprint the physical space, the grid systems within, on and around the Earth. It is far reaching. Do not panic. All is as it should be and it operates in perfection. Now bring the heart into the equation and view it from a feeling point and you will realize that you have felt these feelings before and though it may not be socially acceptable, we assure you that you drew it to you. Not because you deserve punishment, as you are a blessed GodBeing. You drew it to you as a gift, a gift of healing, offering your soul experience and freedom. After all, that is why you are here. To experience. To offer Your gift – your soul experience. That is the freedom.
In 2005 I merged with Shiva while I was running energy. At that point, I did not usually merge, I usually just ran energy through me, now I do both. I did not know much about Shiva, I had just heard the name before. The energy felt so loving and nurturing I assumed it was feminine given that the name ends in an ‘a.’ I had no statues, pictures or chants and I had given no offerings. I say that only to point out that the offering comes from within. Ritual and tradition can be a beautiful focus when in balance, but know that you have everything within you as well.
I began to recognize Shiva’s energy during sessions – the energy moves so fast and I am focusing on the information for the client so I don’t take names. ;0) It is always guided by the Hierarchy of Angels and Shiva carries the energy of release and a family line to me, so the Shiva energy is always a part of a session. There are millions (billions?) that carry a family line to Shiva, I am not the only one. So I was doing sessions like normal, just sometimes I would recognize the Shiva energy.
One day I sat to meditate and I told the Universe I wanted ‘clear, clear, clear’ guidance on what I was to do next. I had no expectations. They told me to channel Shiva and told me where to do it. It never dawned on me that Shiva wanted to talk in length. I chose a date about 3 or 4 weeks later and then I went into clearing mode to accommodate the frequencies. I had never channeled in public before, so I practiced; sometimes orally, sometimes written. It was a great experience (I was so scared!), although I didn’t tape it so I don’t remember much of it. So after that, I just ignored it. I really wasn’t too keen on being the white girl that channels Shiva. I don’t know anything about Shiva and millions do. I just didn’t feel comfortable with that.
At that point I knew only one story about Shiva that I read after I merged for the first time - likening the energy of Shiva (‘The Destroyer’ – I call Shiva ‘the Releaser’) to exhaling. If you don’t destroy that breath, you actually inhibit the continuance of life. I love the allegory, but it also resonated with me because when I merged with Shiva I heard “Primordial breath” while I blew through a mudra my hand was making.
So months passed and I didn’t channel Shiva publicly. Just avoided it. They were gently nudging me that I should be doing it. Then they got a little louder. So I started to think about why I was reticent. Again it came back to knowing nothing of Shiva while millions do. I felt no connection to the traditions, had no knowledge of the traditions and I had no desire to learn the traditions. Evidently, that was the point. I’ve always known that the skin we are in this time around is just that. We’ve been everything and had experiences of most, if not all, races and genders and more. I thought, ‘Why me? Can’t you give me an alien or something? People don’t have religions built around them that I know nothing about.’ (Now I am clear that I am a universal channel that brings through whatever energy of Light is best suited to the energy and the topic.)
But the feeling persisted that I should be channeling Shiva. So I agreed to think about it and I wanted to get to know Shiva. So I Googled Shiva. Seriously. (A Saturday Night Live skit plays in my head that has a song about Googling people – ‘Why did I Goo-Goo-Google him?’ Very funny) Anyhoo, I googled around a little bit, but nothing felt right. I would find a little explanation or story and just click away. Then I found a video homage to Shiva and I watched it. I saw a cave with a frozen lingham-shaped ice door that activated me a little. Then came the pictures of the mountains. Pretty, very nice. I love mountains, Mt. Shasta was even in there. There was one part with a picture of 4 mountains. In the bottom corner was a snowy mountain that sealed the deal. When I saw that one picture I hit pause and I went into channel. I was HOME. I was with FAMILY. I sang and chanted, and I’ve been singing within that mountain for eons. There was the energy of Shiva. And Shiva is everything.
We all are. I tasted the Wholeness with Shiva, if only for 30 or 45 minutes. What a blissful experience. I had to know about this mountain. The video had some writing under it, but it was blurry and I couldn’t read it. I searched for about an hour and a half. I finally found it. It’s Mt. Kailasa (many different spellings) and they call it ‘The Abode of Shiva.’ I must say I do agree. (I later found that had I reduced the size of the video I could have read the writing!)
So over time I finally began to come to terms with my channeling. It was a surprisingly difficult challenge to channel in public. Once I opened up to running energy the way that I do with the hand movements, Light Language and toning; you’d think it would be easy to channel. I’m not sure why I was reticent, but I’m not anymore. It’s a natural part of who I AM.
The process is a beautiful feeling. I am conscious as I channel, so I listen as the words are being said and sometimes I receive packets of information that come in to teach a lesson. Sometimes this is specific to me so I will fully understand what is being said, sometimes it’s something I must speak about with others so the full information gets transferred. I am experiencing feelings throughout the channeling. For instance if they are speaking about how much they love us I feel this fully. Sometimes this is so powerful, I am overwhelmed with feeling and the words slow or stop in order to accommodate my feelings. It is a constant process of allowing. Channeling is a natural state for artists. When you are creating art, you are in a state of allowing rather than thinking and analyzing. You are in flow, which is a powerful place to be.
I am very grateful to experience Shiva. There is a deep Love to Shiva's energy that I hope you feel throughout the channelings.